yes...if i go out now it is very rarely and it is to dance..not get high or drink..but dance

just make sure there are joints in the smoke pack and head off

but...i am usually out of the club before close..a short sweet stay!

This forum is beneficial to all concerned. It also adds weight to the fact even something as benign as cannabis can still be addictive to some. It looks better to the outside as we are not merely drug users so caught up in ourselves than we cannot admit defeat.

My problem(s) donot lie in Cannabis, that is in fact my relief. Giving up coke was the most difficult thing I ever did, but dont regret it for one second. It draws you into yourself, you get caught up in your own little world and eventually implode.

I realize there is a life outside of blow, and its not that bad either, I had to learn there are supposed to be lows, or else you cannot recognize highs. Blow makes you a diluted, shallow individual. But you feel like the opposite, as a matter of fact, everything on blow was a contridiction.

Thank You Marc

herbal....you are so right!!! when people say Oh, i use it socially to open up...BULLSHIT...that shit did nothing but make me go further into myself and my depression and almost died!

i thank god that i am not one of these people that i used to hear..."Yeah i've been doing for 12 years and i love it"..i only did it for a couple years (quite excessively...one sit down i could kill a ball and throw in a couple hits of ex..and we got a night!)

i look back with disgust that i let myself become a dependant...i feel much guilt and dissappointment in myself for letting this happen...there is nothing i can about my past....but my future looks better!

We must remember that we are faced with choices throughout our life to help us grow and evolve towards a higher state of being. These choices allow us insight into lives and situations that we successfully climb out of, so that we can take them and share them with others as hope, as reference, as whatever it needs to be. Once we make the choices to endure intense journeys, we must make the absolute most of it! Stand strong, be proud of the strength and faith you have within yourself, and help set examples for others to grab onto, to help them see what their choices can result in.
Peace and Love to You Leo
Never forget how amazing you really are!
Love, Sarah

hopeful is one strong woman and always can be counted for the nicest and most encouraging things!!! we can all learn from her strength!

thanks Sarah....for just being YOU!

You two are so kind
Thank you
Support from my friends encourages me to keep on going, and I really appreciate it.
Love to you both, Sarah

seems to be quite a bit of coke talk here, so ill ask you this

how do i drill into my friends brain that crack is evil? hes such a thickheaded stubborn moron (in the most friendliest way) he and 2 of his friends go and buy a 40 and then theyre like oh no this is all we need and then 1/2 hour later theyre out for more..... and more.... and more....
this makes me sick. i housesat for a crackhead for 2 weeks before i knew he was a crackhead for sure. you could tell just by looking. he came back from bc and i left the same day.
anyway, any insight would be appreciated. i cant just tell him anything all i do is bring him facts he rejects. bleh. thanks

Those drugs screw up your brain chemistry. I always "wish" I had a line of coke. Thats why I recommend staying away from them because you'll like them "too" much. You cannot help a person who doesnt want help, so your efforts may be in vain, but don't give up. If you have to have an intervention with your friend I'd do it, or stop hanging out with them. Sadly they'll choose the drug over your friendship, but then soon after they'll hit "rock" bottom, and then have no other direction to go than up. They'll have to come to you and appologize for being blind sighted and a self absorbed asshole.

This process from when I started using Cocaine regularly (used it once a year before it became chronic) until when I finally said enough was 7 short months, 2 jobs ($4000), a $3000 RESP, lost friends, lost trust of family members. I'm only 18 and only an addict for less than a year, but doing an 8ball a day and picking up another 2 grams at 3:30 in the morning, consequative 1/2 gram lines one after another (left, right, left, right) did a serious number to myself. From all the cash I had I have 3 pairs of socks, 1 pair of boxer shorts and 2 T shirts, the rest went to drugs. On top of that I did alot of illegal things to support my habit, so the financial burden is even higher.

The fact I still wish I could have a line after what it did to me shows how powerfully addictive it is. Don't hate your friend, he's posessed as of now, its not him thinking, its the drug controling him, even when hes not on it. You have to go at least a month before you can stop subconsciously feinding. I did 1 month 1 day and was doing great. Then I had a slip up, couldnt turn it down since it was for free. Now once again I want it every day, and think up devious plots to obtain cash to obtain coke. Its sickening.

Marijuana saved me from it, when I feind, thinking of stealing this or pawning that I have a nice hoot and relax. I no longer feel like a mischivous individual willing to go to from one end of the earth to the other in pursuit of lines. I have hoots, they cost $10 a gram to buy rather than $50, and I can be higher off weed, and I dont feind for more less than 30 min later. When the grow gets going again it will cost even less to produce. I hope then I can be done with that shit for good. Its a step backwards, but you feel like its a leap forwards.

Your friend will not want to stop. This is the drug effect. I didnt want to quit. Coke gave me hope in a hopeless world. But this "hopeless" world was my creating in pursuit of the false hope and the hope was superficial, all in the head. Its never there the next day when you need it. All the good intentions you have on it mean nothing the next day. You will in fact do evil things to get bact to this state where you feel better. Its like Dr. Jeckyll & Mr. Hyde; two extremes from each end of the specterum. You'd be better off staying neutral in the middle.

Several of us here have all gone through the crack/cocaine thing. I know a support system is essential because for a coke head coke is all there world is. They need peoples to show them a life outside the box, it can be difficult, but it can be done.